A few days ago I was having a “get to know each other” chat with my new boss. “What are your career aspirations?”, he asked.
“I don’t know.” I replied.
“I don’t know.”??? Seriously? I actually said that? To my boss? What was I thinking?? I wondered at my own reply, the moment it slipped out of my lips.
But that is the truth. I am enjoying what I do. I like the fact that it is mostly stress free. I get enough time with my kids. I would like to have a reasonable growth rate in my career and not fall behind everybody. But there is no finishing line.
When I told Vibhu about the conversation he was upset. “What kind of career stalling reply was that?”
“When I fell for you, I had thought that you would be attending board room meeting in short skirts by this time. But look at you! You behave like a housewife working only for time pass.”
To tell you the truth, 12 years ago, that is the picture I had for myself too. Attending board room meetings in short skirts. Having a high-flying life. I even pictured my self divorced because I imagined no man will be able to take that. Kids were nowhere in the plan.
I am not sure why I had Venky. Probably because Vibhu surely wanted to be a dad and I was not sure that I did not want to be a mom. Plus all the moms of this country were making my life hell with baby demands. So, I thought I might as well have a baby and Venky arrived. And Bam! My whole life changed.
In between sleepless nights and diaper changing sessions I fell hard in love with the little man. I discovered that side of myself which I did not know existed. Everything else became insignificant compared to the new lovely world of parenthood.
So here I am. With two adorable kids. A working mom who wants a career, but a board room meeting is not my calling anymore. Playing with my kids is. And in between cuddles and kisses and hugs, dare I say that life is good? It is beautiful. It is a blessing. I am loving every moment it and I can only thank my kids for that.